Kelly, my heart goes out to you. I want to tell you that you’re wrong, that it doesn’t have to be this way, that if you do x, y, and z, things get better, but as a mother myself, I know it’s way more nuanced than that. My hope is that you explore your capacity to incorporate any small self care practice into your weekly routine (which is difficult to do when the day to day is so demanding, boy, do I get that). But it’s necessary, dare I say essential to this job we call motherhood. Sending you tons of love, from one tough Mommy to another.